Last night I had a rather disturbing dream. No, not all of my dreams are disturbing, some are set in huge white “classrooms” where someone is speaking to us, some in modeling settings, some where we look down on a world and see a peoples experience. Some are set up where I’m helping people in distress; and I mean distress like natural disasters, or “customer service” to people who want to know about what happens in ascension, and sometimes, dreams where I learn discernment between the real and the illusion in different realms. Inside dream state, I’ve been questioned by the men in black, and I’ve been intimidated many times, since I was a youth. So no, nothing in this world surprises as much as it use to. Yes, I’ve grown away from fear, and into love.
I’ve experienced the Light realms and the Shadow realms. I’ve been shaken so bad in my worldly experiences that I would wait up for the Shadow—hoping to catch it before it caught me. Of course, it always caught me off guard, right at the edge of sleep. I would run and run or half fly and stumble trying to escape it. That was after I became saved from the world and before I learned to follow Jesus’s instruction, to call on him. Now THOSE were helluva fights! BUT he kept his word and I did call finally on him after wrestling with a shadow for a week! The longest week of my life! I had manifested the damned thing into my wake state and the thing would terrorize me only in the dark at first. I was so shook, I kept lights on everywhere I went in my house, day and night. But because I couldn’t stop thinking about it, it started to show up in the light as well. I did eventually overcome it through sincere prayer, reading scripture and not only did I call on Jesus, I trusted that he would come and save me from darkness. I keep my bible open to Palsms 91 and recite verse often.
How cunningly evil shadow spirits can be though. I had called on Jesus at the top of my lungs after being dragged from my bed into another room. I mean the yanking was so strong and I was holding on to something so as not to be pulled OUT of where I was and into I don’t know what and I didn’t want to. I kept screaming “Jesus! Jesus! Save me!” over and over, seemed like forever. I had actually found my voice and was screaming from my gut. And just like that I felt a release and I was awake. I was worse than shook; the nausea and the aching pain in my body and spirit, my heart pounding in my ears was so much to bear. I cried so much! The very next night (it was actually day, 5ish in the morning because I waited up for it, determined to face it and kill it (my dumb-ass huh?)) the damned thing rushed at me and jumped on my chest, had the nerve to choke me! All so I wouldn’t be able to call on the lord! I still tried and my GOD! My will was stronger than it had ever been! I was released and I literally woke up choking!
The mind is the most complex, yet most fragile thing of a HUman BEing—at least in my opinion. I suffered because I was determined to be God‘s child. Al of that that I went through I HAD TO. That was the place we call the VOID, the battle with our lower selves (EGO). I was facing my own demons created by myself when I was living of the world. The hate, the judgments’, sexuality, envy, anger, all the negative experiences I had chosen/bought over the years. My own EGO was so angry with me for wanting to CHANGE! Of course I didn’t know all of this at the time and I’ve since evolved into a more understanding BEing of my higher Self.
I tell you being saved with mySelf is nothing like when I was “saved” at the church altars so many times. No one told me that I was going to had to walk the path of Jesus before he became Christ. No one told me that I would have to go through such a terrible battle and some struggles to get back to my father GOD. Nobody came in the night to comfort me after being jumped by the darkness. No one said to call on Jesus with all your MIGHT and all your WILL. If they did and they meant it themselves, I would have remembered such a gem of advice. But you know what? I’m glad it happened this way—not the battles, the coming into Christ.
When I encountered the Christ Light in this past January, I didn’t know what to expect afterward. When I came out of it I the actual experience), I cried for days and nights. I wanted it back so bad—I was mourning for it. Sounds extra but if you’ve ever been there you know how I felt, and for you who seek and do find it, you will then understand from your own experience. Someone asked me last night, the difference between “regular love and the spirit love” and to describe it. First I must say, it’s a beautiful thing to be AT this point in my life, that persons question reflected that during our conversation. Of course, I owe my salvation to the Christ Jesus, and I continually give thanks and gratitude for the gift of the Holy Spirit.
Now I answered the persons question as such: Love of the Spirit of Christ can’t be described. It can only BE. When we try to describe God’s glory, we sound and/or look crazy. I’ve tried. I’ve been lookin’ real crazy lately…lolol smh. Like knows like, all others call us different, and some shun us, others are changed by us—which is God’s purpose, for all of us to turn unto his ever-lasting, unconditional love. :0) I can’t give it to you, you must seek to find it. I can show you the way, like I was shown, but of course you’d have to want to seek, to make the choice to live in the will of GOD. I admit, I get overwhelm by the gloriousness of GOD sometimes, and I want to share with everybody around me, but not to brag but to rejoice in GOD’s name! We do not live to show our selves purposely (Matthew 6:1-4).
Sounds preachy? Well, it is what it is. As a Light-worker and Way-shower, I strive at keeping the path clean as possible BUT also in the light of Truth. We’re going to have to go through battles to come out of the illusion we created for ourselves in which we separated ourselves from GOD in thinking that we could live without our almighty father, who ALL I AM. We BE because GOD IS and the WORD IS because we ARE. Man (flesh) will pass away but the spirit of GOD will last forever.
Which brings me to the dream I had last night (sometimes the spirit does that—takes you somewhere you’ve been, to review, and then bring you back to your present point). It is very important that we as parents keep our children close and show them the right way to go. My dream surrounded an incident in which a group of parents lost “control” over their children because some “outside influences” came into the children lives. Thought it presented itself as “disease” in my dream, I see it represented different in the wake state. These outside influences include but are not limited to: Music, Alcohol, legal and illegal drugs (and yes, that includes marijuana and o.t.c. medications), caffeine, sex, video games, television, and sugar. KNOW your children and their BEings. If you pay all the bills in your home, and you carry the title ‘parent’, then there is no way you can NOT know what is going on under YOUR roof. Being too busy is not an excuse, do you fit your job into your life or do you fit your life into your job?
Our children are precious gifts from GOD and WE are to watch over them diligently. A people government makes billions in dollars a year in the baby-tween-teen market alone. They make factory dolls of our babies, either they’re educated for the work-force to build wealth for others, or they’re imprisoned and debilitated, forced back into society to reproduce havoc that mirrors their prison life. Because these outside influences grip our children at such young ages, it can be a task in itself trying to convince your child that YOU are not their enemy.
Be strong, be diligent, and be truthful, sure-footed and confident when bringing your child away from the world and into the love and care of GOD. Too many parents today say, “That’s his/her choice.” to justify their children negative behaviors. That’s not good enough when you haven’t laid out the choices in the first place. I heard this phrase a lot growing up, “That’s your choice.” But had someone TOLD me and been diligent and true about it, I (and many others) might not have had to go through hell to get to heaven. Had we known what our choices were, SURELY, and I’m speaking for many, SURELY, we wouldn’t have gotten lost in the first place. Bless
Ephesians 6:2 “Honor your father and mother.” This is the first commandment with a promise:
Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary
6:1-4: The great duty of children is, to obey their parents. That obedience includes inward reverence, as well as outward acts, and in every age prosperity has attended those distinguished for obedience to parents. The duty of parents. Be not impatient; use no unreasonable severities. Deal prudently and wisely with children; convince their judgements and work upon their reason. Bring them up well; under proper and compassionate correction; and in the knowledge of the duty God requires. Often is this duty neglected, even among professors of the gospel. Many set their children against religion; but this does not excuse the children’s disobedience, though it may be awfully occasion it. God alone can change the heart, yet he gives his blessing to the good lessons and examples of parents, and answers their prayers. But those, whose chief anxiety is that their children should be rich and accomplished, whatever becomes of their souls, must not look for the blessing of God. (Source: www.biblecc.com)
Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it.
Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary
22:1 We should be more careful to do that by which we may get and keep a good name, than to raise or add unto a great estate. 2. Divine Providence has so ordered it, that some are rich, and others poor, but all are guilty before God; and at the throne of God’s grace the poor are as welcome as the rich. 3. Faith foresees the evil coming upon sinners, and looks to Jesus Christ as the sure refuge from the storm. 4. Where the fear of God is, there will be humility. And much is to be enjoyed by it; spiritual riches, and eternal life at last. 5. The way of sin is vexatious and dangerous. But the way of duty is safe and easy. 6. Train children, not in the way they would go, that of their corrupt hearts, but in the way they should go; in which, if you love them, you would have them go. As soon as possible every child should be led to the knowledge of the Saviour. 7. This shows how important it is for every man to keep out of debt. As to the things of this life, there is a difference between the rich and the poor; but let the poor remember, it is the Lord that made the difference. 8. The power which many abuse, will soon fail them. 9. He that seeks to relieve the wants and miseries of others shall be blessed. 10. Profane scoffers and revilers disturb the peace. 11. God will be the Friend of a man in whose spirit there is no guile; this honour have all the saints. 12. God turns the counsels and designs of treacherous men to their own confusion. 13. The slothful man talks of a lion without, but considers not his real danger from the devil, that roaring lion within, and from his own slothfulness, which kills him. 14. The vile sin of licentiousness commonly besots the mind beyond recovery. 15. Sin is foolishness, it is in the heart, there is an inward inclination to sin: children bring it into the world with them; and it cleaves close to the soul. We all need to be corrected by our heavenly Father. 16. We are but stewards, and must distribute what God intrusts to our care, according to his will. (Source: www.biblecc.com)
Matthew 19:14 But Jesus said, Allow little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew Henry’s Concise Commentary
19:13-15 It is well when we come to Christ ourselves, and bring our children. Little children may be brought to Christ as needing, and being capable of receiving blessings from him, and having an interest in his intercession. We can but beg a blessing for them: Christ only can command the blessing. It is well for us, that Christ has more love and tenderness in him than the best of his disciples have. And let us learn of him not to discountenance any willing, well-meaning souls, in their seeking after Christ, though they are but weak. Those who are given to Christ, as part of his purchase, he will in no wise cast out. Therefore he takes it ill of all who forbid, and try to shut out those whom he has received. And all Christians should bring their children to the Saviour that he may bless them with spiritual blessings.
In Jesus Name