I was awakened from a dream, and found mySelf contemplating on my feelings of indecision again, on some things that I deem important to mySelf and GOD, but that the world and the people that work for it could care less about.
The little office workers(paper pushers/supervisors) have made it clear that they have no problems (and even get paid) making things very uncomfortable/difficult for my little family. They think they are in power to control peoples well-beings from a personal stance. But you know what, GOD is the Almighty overseer. (Proverbs 22:22-23)
As I clear my heart, my mind (ego) may sometimes “chastise” me as deserving of my current hardships. So ultimately, the ego is not necessarily happy when hardships are being addressed, it likes to keep us in illusions that we can “handle today’s problem tomorrow” and to “just focus on LOOKING good, even if you’re not”. Yet the same ego will mock us for addressing those very problems we ignored, telling us we can’t overcome dis-ease. There’s not just a battle outside our selves, there’s also a battle inside. What we all deserve is to overcome all our lower ourselves and those negative deeds that have seemingly attached themselves to our karmas.
I cannot seem to find the appropriate words to describe to my certain senses and feelings in these days. For instance, “hold”. This word seems to mean something different than it use to. I’m coming up short in describing many BEings in these days. Some of these words escape my understanding, as either completely having no substance or simply not true to the current emotion/BEing of what I observe in others.
Ex: A stirring in the loins/butterflies in the stomach means LOVE. Yet there IS a word to describe such a feeling as Lust.
One’s mind plays “word-association games” so much until the person “unknowningly” loses attachment to their TRUE emotion in BEing (true Self), and instead, they “feel” a word, even if it isn’t how they actually are BEing inside. In other words, they feel how the world wants them to be, and depress their true feelings.
I don’t (no longer) like the idea of planning to feel something, or searching for a word to describe how I feel. I want to BE as I AM.
Since most of us could remember far back to youth ( me,age 1), we were told we didn’t feel what we expressed. Even nowadays, when we express happiness, people ask what’s wrong. They’ve forgotten what happiness looks and/or feels like. Rich or poor, those people take advantage to engulf us in darkness with them, to claw at walls, and scream at echoes in the valley of the shadows.
It really doesn’t matter who one points fingers at for such learned behavior; to act false in our true BEings. It doesn’t matter why it was done . What matters is we now notice that when we are BEing in any given emotion, that we BE true to recognize it and deal with it accordingly. Anger for instance.
All of us get angry for one reason or another. Someone might tell us we’re not when we really are feeling it at that moment. We don’t tell people we’re angry to be shut down, we hope they really can give us a word of encouragement or advice(think of teenagers too).
Our true Selves do reach out for help, sometimes. Humans of today barely reach for our help because WE don’t even be true to our OWN Selves(again, learned behaviors)! Many SEE through the veil, yet they cannot lift it on their own. So they HIDE in false BEings. Even if they know some things are wrong with people in this world, they think they are not strong enough alone to change them. I say, even if we bless ONE person’s heart per day, we are blessing many. For they each come in contact with many more people.
We are the minority. We are the 2% Lightworkers. We agreed to come here and BE light beacons to guide our brothers and sisters back toward the path of Light.
WE are not perfect, as we too (many of us) are still in human form. That does not change our duties. “I am a work in progress even as I work.”
Time is short as I realized today even more so now, especially because a tornado caused an upset in NYC (unusual weather for those parts). Many of us have heard our names being called &/or many of us have received the message, “It’s time.”
Time for what?
Time to wake up and gather a people to prepare for the coming of the lord.
This isn’t the time for shame, and fear of mockery, shunning, “losing” relationships. As we (many of us) received the message to “Prepare”, some of us twice. As we cannot go backward in time to change THEN, we move forward to change NOW.
Sharing daily WORD:
2 Corinthians 10:1-18
2 Corinthians 11:1-15
In that order.
May GOD, our father forgive us our sins each day and may we continue to seek Christ through our brother Jesus’s gospel. May we continue to bless and BE blessed. In Jesus name, Amen.
(Feel free to discuss with mySelf, yourSelf, and/or others.)