I Was Born Yesterday

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Self-Empowerment: Conflictive Support in Friendships

​​I’ve learned to invest in my own ideas, my own thoughts, my own feelings. I’ve had so many businesses…I can count way pass ten digits. NOTHING but users and abusers and naysayers around me…or people who wanted to change my ideas…or decide what their idea of support is, which was usually the opposite of what I asked, if at all. We automatically think because we have a product, that the greatest thing someone can do for us is buy the product. But then what?

If you all are not aware, on new years eve, a celeb felt of good cheer and sent out a message of monetary support to fans who shared their need of funds for various reasonings. 

There was one woman who asked for “people support”. In other words, she asked to be connected to supportive people vs giving her the money. The celeb in turn asked how much money she needed, she settled on $5000, and made it known that she would preferred the people support, the tone sounded disappointed. 

I thought to myself, why not just give her the “people support”, maybe she has money, “people support” would help her elevate her business. That sucks.

If you’ve been in my home, you’ve seen several paintings on my walls and have commented however you felt about them. In asking who the artist was…you eventually found out it was me. I have been offered money for them and commissioned to paint for others. I’ve refused it all. 

Recently a very good friend of mine, mentioned that the paintings are just sitting there three years now, when they should be shared with the world. I never thought of that. I consider these paintings as stages in my life. He noted that they aren’t stages, they are who I am, and that other people would be able to relate when they see the paintings…and would buy prints for their living rooms and offices, and cards and other merchandise. 

Then he said, “You want to sell a successful product, make it personal. Don’t sell a t-shirt if it isn’t personal. Sell hair products that you use yourself, and definitely do not sell makeup, because you don’t even wear makeup…maybe lip color. Like you sell your perfumes and body oils; if it smells like your father, you can still share that. Personality sells. Share your personality! You are a multi-millionaire and haven’t collected your check, because you’re hoarding your most profitable product. You. YOU are creative if ever I seen a woman create. If you say it smells like Heaven, share that! You’ve written in other people’s names for so long, put YOUR name on the books! Put out the products you create…even if it is just one at a time. You have a house full of products; every time I come here you’ve created something new, and you explain their existence very well from wherever you travelled in your sleep, but share them with the people. Personality sells! You don’t have to have a gimmick..be yourself. How many people have you supported and the product was no good or those people knew you until you bought their products, then they didn’t know you anymore. Those are gimmicks. Those people don’t last. Sell longevity and impact more than temporary and trendy. In the meantime, I’m going to support you by paying for three trademarks, you decide which three and let me know in 30 days.”

That was the best support I’ve had in many years. Not the buying of the trademarks…the ASSESSMENT. The DISCUSSION. And my friend and I have disagreements every so often! But the truth is the truth and he came through with prime support! People tend to void disagreements with me…directly with me anyway. I tend to speak up…as I assume friends disagree, talk about it, and then move forward. But instead of doing that, they ignore me, and tell everyone around them, ask strangers who don’t know me for the answer, they write subposts, they don’t respond to my texts or calls, or they simply stop engaging with me. And that says a lot to me. Lack of respect, or that I’m not worth their time. Which contradicts their supposedly interest in having a friendship in the first place. Friends disagree. So therefore how can I support a person that doesn’t even want to talk to me just because I may disagree with something? I’ve gotten rid of my phone number…no need for it. 

Last night, I dreamed a Crone told me that my (omit) left me some money when she died, and the Crone offered to help me find the money. However the Crone lead me on a dark path that was littered with accidents, and people I thought I was cool with were walking around in the dark. The Crone hit one of them with her car(a baby blue Cadillac 1970ish) like the person was a rag doll. I thought me and that person was cordial..even shared some stories…but who knew. Envy isn’t always blunt. And there was nothing but storm after storm. I decided it wasn’t worth getting that money if I had to go through such a dark energy, and she tried to give me hell. I couldn’t tell if she was trying to help me or hurt me. So I decided to close that book and changed dreams for something more inspirational.

I’m looking at CONFLICT differently. I think people approach us with personal interests of friendship, and their own intentions of which we are not often aware; and when we don’t go along or support something, we’re a problem, and they begin to stay away or just in the edge for a while. However, in us thinking something is wrong with us, God done in the meantime blocked their access to you, but you don’t know that, because what you hear when you reach out is “I’ve been busy.” You further pull up thoughts of nobody is that busy that they can’t make time to say hi or whatever. But the truth is they ARE busy. And it’s not about you, it’s about them. 
Again if you have a disagreement with someone and they choose to ignore you rather than address it, stop reaching out. No everyone can handle conflict or see their way through, some can and choose not to conflict with you, and ultimately, people have every right to consciously cut off access and engage with those who will agree with their intentions without conflict to themselves. Let’s not get back into sacrifices. Just don’t sacrifice your own well-being and fool yourself into thinking you’re being SUPPORTIVE.

I woke this morning and the last words I heard coming out of sleep this morning was, “Keep failing until you succeed.” I felt like that was a good start to the next three years. I am a multi-millionaire. I know that. I just never admitted it and committed it to myself. And it’s ok. I am supporting myself and all my dreams, intents and purposes. You know, self empowerment.

Self-Realism: Undefined Relationships


Our current relationship status doesn’t guarantee us happiness or happily ever after. The status has to be lived in real time. Many of us are in relationships acting as if we’re single at selective moments. And many of us are single… pretending to be attached also at selective moments. And many of us are simply in undefined relationships…playing it by the other persons level of contact…or mood…or how much sex we can get or make ourselves available for…under the guise that this is what an exclusive relationship is.
I’m not saying two people have to sit each others feelings or constantly define their union. What I’m am saying, is that it’s OK to spend time with the people you like to spend time with too…away from the definitions and labels. It’s ok to be an adult in your own happiness, which may include openly seeing multiple people, while dating one person. Until you and that person discuss being more to each other, and define concrete purpose to each other, you are free to enjoy your time with other adults.

Some days ago I ran into a male associate whom I hadn’t seen in some years. During our quick catch-up he asked if I were seeing anyone. I said yes…long distance. He chuckled, reached in his suit breast pocket and handed me his business card. He told me to call him when I’m free for lunch or dinner and drinks. And he moved on…eye-ing me in the face. Now had he said that first, then handed his card I more than likely wouldn’t have taken it. But still, did he not respect what I just informed him? He didn’t give me a chance to deny him. But that doesn’t mean he had sinister motive either. I still exist with my own mind and purposes…but I wondered still. What if I hadn’t said long distance? 
Recently, I’ve also observed that when I tell people I’m dating long distance…it reflects back as sorrowful or desperate. “Oh that must be hard for youuu.”…or…”How often do you see each other??”…or…”You’re not worried about him cheating?…you know he cheatin right?”…or “Wow there’s plenty of men here who would definitely date you…what made you go long distance?” I mean they wanna know everything! I have no answers. If anything…I’m left with questioning myself. It’s not like all the world knows and I just have to suck it up. But when I’m invited to events and I RSVP for one…or show as a single in a place full of adults…it just feels awkward. Few people know the details of this long distance thing…but even they seem to “forget” I’m dating someone, and regularly attempt to connect me to sorts of men. 


It’s OK to want and even need definitions and labels. Your relationship isn’t for other people. But neither does it have to be a secret or undefined to the people around you. If you commit yourself to someone make sure you’re dating that person regularly and they’re committed to you, and all intents and purposes are absolute clear. You don’t want to look like a fool at any point should you be the more lovey dovey partner and want to be openly affectionate, whether online or in real life. There’s nothing more embarrassing than being publicly rejected, or to be subjected to watch other people openly flirt with your partner as if you aren’t there. Which means either they really don’t know about you or they don’t care…because your partner hasn’t created clear and concrete boundaries. People treat you how your partner speaks of you…if at all.

Annnd lastly, it’s absolutely OK to ‘not date’ or have any type of relationship with someone if you don’t see a future with them or cannot define absolute exclusivity — whether til tomorrow or years from today.

Soul Clearing: Sweat and Swear

​​There are absolute stressful and despairing moments during soul clearing in which you’re grappling at the external environment because some shit you don’t need (but thought you needed) is being taken from you. It’s almost primitive behavior in which you fight so hard to rationalize this need to stay in a cave as the water is raising higher…knowing you can’t swim. 
That’s that system fragmentation I often talk about.

You don’t want to entertain the thought of leaving…not to find safer ground…but JUST THE THOUGHT OF NOT KNOWING IF THERE *IS* SAFER GROUND. This is evidence that you are still in your own mind, to NOT THINK AND KNOW THAT WHERE YOU ARE, CAN AND WILL KILL YOU. If you don’t know and don’t want to let go–get out–while you can WALK. 
This ain’t no bag of cookies and makeup. This is sweat and swear work!



SOUL CLEARING will pull you OUT your own mind and uncover the FIRST mind. It is not a new mind..it is the FIRST thought and it will reshape your mind back into and of itself. So not only will you be removed from the cave, there is a twinkling moment (I call it the voice/hand of god), in which you will find yourself in a completely different location. 
This process will happen several times throughout your lifetime. 



This is my third wave…but I’ve done multiple simulations…I swear I’m going to “drown”…but my follow through is getting better. One time I just kept falling and was reaching for anything…but there was nothingness closing in…then it became so cold…there was some fear…I couldn’t speak…so I spoke in my mind to be released…and I felt the whishing of being pulled up. Yeah…I wasn’t so sure about that one…that wasn’t me. 
So anyway…what’s the purpose of it all…? 

I wish I knew..but if you have to go to school you may as well learn the lessons…and be damn good at them!
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In The Light Chamber

I went into a light chamber last night. I was singing the pain away, and calling Jesus between breaths. I FELT the song I sang in every fiber of my being. It was my song-the more I let go the greater I sang!

It felt like my soul was being sucked with every note I belted out. The depths of my soul was being cleansed. There was a bed there, but I couldn’t lie down, I was too caught up in my spirit.

When you finally sing your own song, you’ll understand-the only way TO survive is in the spirit. You’ll be yourself-in a different light-of your truth.

I don’t know who you call on, but I call on Jesus. And he comes every time.

God is light. God is love.

Love and light to you!

#MultiDimensional News!!

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Keep Your House In Order

I dreamed that I was at the church I went to as a youth. My adopted father was there (who is deceased but I talk to during pivotal moments in my life). It had been announced that Jesus Christ was coming. The church was packed, and there were deacons there clearing the halls saying, “Jesus Christ is Coming!” I was standing at the back seats where I always sat. I was so glad because this meant that all of us who sat at the back of the church would be the first ones to see him coming. I was thinking that he would see me or I would touch his robe. A woman who stood behind me (which would’ve been in front of me originally) tried to distract me about my clothing (a dress with red and blue flowers). She gave me a read tie and I ran off to put it on, but halfway to the bathroom, I realized I would miss Jesus, so I dropped the tie and ran back. She was not happy. The hall lights were turned out. I thought it didn’t matter, we would know him by his light. People were clapping so loud and singing….and we were waiting…I woke up.

*In writing this dream, I see several areas that can easily match biblical  scripture. Yet, I also see so personal growth.

We easily become distracted by things that people in the world say is best for us. Do I believe this to be a prophecy dream? It doesn’t matter.

What I DO believe is that we should keep our “houses” in order, and not be distracted, to be able to experience the Light for ourselves. The council of Heaven has never led me astray. Not once.

I had a guide to prepare me for Hurricane Sandy (though I didn’t know that’s what was coming at those times). When the storm was over, my house was not touch even though it sits at the water. All others around me flooded out or worse. Sometimes I just stare at the water in silence, causing myself a headache trying to expand my mind to comprehend God.

But I know what I do know because the heavens councils know I desire to go to where God is. Of course, I must focus on NOW, HERE, in order to that. I’m in love with God. People still ask or look at my house and don’t get it. That’s God loving me too!

That’s how it’s been my whole life. Except I’ve been intently listening since 12/25/11; now I have journals and typed papers of “dreams” and experiences. And I’m so grateful to be a traveler.

:0)

30 Minutes of Self-Empowerment

Hi All!

(*30 Minute Self-Empowerment Session done alone laying on my own couch.)

Reflection, Acceptance, Placement, and Healing

I’m listening to distanced muffled sounds. I remember I dreamed I was in suspended animation…in nothingness. There was a muffled voice. I’ve been like this for weeks. Attentively listening to muffled voices, and feeling comfortable, or relaxed. Tuning in but never quite making out the words clearly. Hmp

No wonder I’m attracted to muffled sounds–voices in particular. Could be my own throat chakra manifested unbalanced. Hmmm…..That’s my thought adjuster (or higher self) working on me.

Eureka! I seek muffled voices for comfort yet complain of lack ability to verbalize my messages via video! IT’S SELF-HINDRANCE!
Wowa! On the spot!

I will open my throat chakra by attracting clear and audible voices. Opening a clear reflective channel to be able to express my verbal Self.

Note: I found in my dream journal a past entry. The voice was clear at some point in the void. It said “Create”. I must’ve froze up in fear, hence suspended animation.

I’m thinking I experienced myself on a voided timeline, and manifested that in waking state; being comfortable w/muffled voices. When actually, that aspect of myself has been the muffled voice trying to express; same as me in waking state.

It started as SOMETHING, but my fear hindered me from moving forward; leaving that aspect (my voice) stuck in a void.

Be well! :0)

Light Overcomes All Illusion

I recalled when the world was much younger, matching my years; everybody was enjoying free will. The entertainment phase of that time boomed right when cable networking appeared. Food was splashed with msg and pretty colors, and the most addictive substance on the market, sugar, was sprinkled on and in everything. Folk were pulled out of nature and into their houses…to watch television…and eat. There was no such thing as recycling yet, and folk went wild with their imaginations; they wanted it, they got credit and they got it.

Nowadays, they’ve been “taught” to recycle their garbage and their beings; just throw away their feelings into the garbage. How else could they “protect” all they’ve acquired; even relationships?

Then came privacy and confidentiality. Privacy gives people a sense of hiding their THINGS and GOING-ONS from view of others. While confidentiality gives people a sense hiding the RESULT/CONSEQUENCE of what those THINGS and GOING-ONS have done to their/others lives. Anything from health, crimes,.habits, drugs, and even relationships and money (including lottery winners). It’s not all negatives.

Throwing away feelings throws away a sense of community. People have become just neighbors, and barely know each other; except to say hello should their eyes mistakenly meet. This is part reason why we who’ve been here all along, are coming to surface, are looked upon as “crazy” or “outsiders”. We say hello. We smile. We hug. We encourage. We notice. And noticing people, and giving compliments causes uncomfortibility—because feelings are stirred. Any heart-felt or spirited connection is abruptly disconnected.

Some of what happens in reference to trickery and formulating illusion on human minds, is sought through movies as entertainment; so they believe that if they didn’t see in the theater, on television or the news—“it ain’t true”. Humans are very suspicious of what’s not drenched in glitz and glamour and money.

In a music video I recently saw, a singer was drugged “into” buying a dream. Recalling my own experience, I thought, “Whew, I’m glad I didn’t do that!” So when I say I suffer because I’m determined, I mean it in the sense that I live in this world but not of it. I work for God. However, I can now easily see how that same statement plays out for the other team as well. I’ve had the opportunity on a few occasions, to have anything I can imagine, in this world. I refused every time. Because at the head of all in THIS world, is just man. I admit, I almost slipped up a few times, having had pen in hand, having been intimidated upon refusal. I’ve seen people I knew of here, over there, and I just think, “Just for THAT, she/he sold their soul??”

We feel tired sometimes being conductors “holding it together” for the sake of HOPING that ALL wake up soon. Now we’ve moved away from hope into FAITH; having increased numbers amongst ourSelves. Because we know the Light overcomes all darknesses.
Be blessed.

God Hasn’t Changed, YOU Changed!

You ever REALLY talk to yourSelf and LOOK at YOU?? Are you consciously making attempts to recover your true nature??  When you’re a child and ask about yourself, people lie to you. As an adult, it becomes ones responsibility to pursue their truth.

The spiritual path is selfwork. Self work is the processes of spiritual realization of self; mental, physical, emotional and psychological. One begins the journey back to God, by clearing self of worldly indwellings. There’s a simultaneous inflowing and outflowing; overcoming the world and gaining heavenly at-one-ment with God.

There’s no skipping steps..you can’t just decide “well I’ll be there on said date”. An example of such a “shortcut” is the supposed “Great Awakening” on 12/21/12.  Millions, if not, thousands of people thought the world was going to end, or they thought they’d suddenly be caught up into a new “paradise on earth”. Just like that! When they physically saw that neither event physically happened, confusion became despair became anger became hopelessness.

Some of those people had abandoned their physical possessions, their jobs, and/or their families. their families (if their families had not already written them off as crazy). Many no longer have the will to to rebuild relationships, or themselves for that matter. They’re now in a state of being “just here”. 

Do the selfwork. Only you can assure your sovereignty in God’s kingdom! The King’s panel is serious. Don’t think by leaving God (for the sake of saving face, amidst worldly people) out of your life that  you’re playing life “safe”. If anything, it’s more dangerous to yourself, and others; you’re an ignorant person indulging in a “false awakening”.

Coming together spiritually for ourselves would ignite the raising of Christ consciousness. Honestly, one can ACT as if they’re saved (spiritually awakened), but eventually, along their path, they’ll be called to a greater work–for God. And if one cannot perform the works in Christ, then they will be exposed as false prophets.

Don’t sleep, the Council of Heaven hasn’t changed one rule to our being here! Keep yourSelf conditioned to discern foolery from truth. We really cannot move forward until NOW is addressed. Let’s stop pretending we didn’t will negativity through lower self-ishness. There’s that simultaneous cleansing and recreating. A breaking down of a system and a people rebuilding at the same time. While we want to cause as little structural damage as possible, there’s still judgment to come.

“Reap what you sow” isnt a cliche. Nor is it a statement of revenge. It is a natural way of the universes. All meets itself again-eventually. All meets it’s CREATOR again —eventually. Eventually are THESE days! We are in the days where we ARE experiencing planetary and universal upsets, or instabilities! Because of our careless actions upon this planet. Hence, “we reap what we sow”!

TRUTH includes much negativity. We can talk about going to heaven and being in a new world. The fact still stands, “Where are we right now?” “They” tell you be positive, otherwise you’re adding to negativity. The fact is, BE RESPONSIBLE, and donot cause burden on Self and others.The question is, What do we do with the burden we are holding right now; individually AND as a people? Take responsibility, that’s what!!

We can’t dance away, march away, not even pray our responsibilities away! We must realize them, accept them, & forgive in flesh AND spirit. Do the work to get back to the almighty Father! Call on Jesus the Christed to assist in your journey.

How do you drop down and create a simple prayer to clear a confused state, get up and go curse somebody under your breath? Stop playing! They got you fooled to thinking that all you have to do is “think and be positive” meanwhile you can’t figure why you’re still troubled in your life! Be the one to read the instruction, don’t accept short-cuts!

Funny how THESE days, they say, everything’s a reflection. No it isn’t! They want to make us sound “fool” when we’re telling you the truth, so you’ll ignore us bringing your awareness to that of God’s presence.

God hasn’t changed. YOU changed!
He wants your attention! Get blessed, be blessed, and stay blessed.

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